Make It Stop

Make It Stop

I’m so tired
Of burning eyes that hold back tears
Of shaking hands that turn to ice
Of hurting hearts that pound my chest

I’m so tired
Of hearing screaming
Of taking blows
Of holding people as they cry

I’m so tired
Of trying to keep the world together as it falls apart
Of not knowing why it is
Of holding on to something that is already gone

I’m so tired
Of hurt
Of pain
Of tears

Just
Make
It
Stop

I Tried

I Tried

I tried, love
To stem the tides
To beat back the flames
But I lost the battle
I’m so ashamed
How did we come to this?

I tried, love
To not let it cut
To keep an optimistic perspective
I held them back when they would hurt you
But somehow I lost my way
I joined their side

I tried, love
To keep my heart glad to see you
To fill myself with trust of you
But I held on until I bled
And the wounds could not be healed
And sorry became a useless plea

I tried, love
But I will not live with the self-loathing
That comes from hating you

Double-Edged Sword

Double-Edged Sword

Words
My dear
Are a double-edged sword

With one blade you cut your adversary
Giving them no time to block
Slicing open their pride
Their heart
Drawing their life blood
Allowing it to drip on the floor
In small measured increments

Laugh
My dear
I know you enjoy it but

Words
My dear
Are a double-edged sword

You are never prepared
For the whiplash
The wound you open in your own soul
Where the darkness you’ve shared
Festers and burns
Causing you pain
Which you can never quite relieve

Cry
My dear
But it won’t make it better

Words
My dear
Are a double-edged sword

You Wonder Why

You Wonder Why

You wonder why
She walked away
Disappearing into the world
Without one look over her shoulder

You wonder why
She felt such hate
And didn’t care
How it hurt you

You wonder why
You were so affected
When it wasn’t you
She erased from her life

You wonder why
She would punish him like that
Because you never understood
What was wrong

Darling, I can show you why
Take a gander at the mirror
And watch what you’re doing
To me

You wonder why