Choose to Lose

Choose to Lose

Teetering on a knife’s edge
Threatening to fall
Words are all we need
To send us sprawling
To either side

What will you say?
My words hide behind a lock of fear;
Fear of heights and fear of tumbling
Fear of choosing
Fear of losing

We’re here now
There’s no going back
Someone has to speak
I’m frightened it will come to me
But God forbid its left for me to seal it

We’ve gone too far
The choice is the only way
But I’m afraid
For I see loss on either side
So what do we choose to lose?

I Tried

I Tried

I tried, love
To stem the tides
To beat back the flames
But I lost the battle
I’m so ashamed
How did we come to this?

I tried, love
To not let it cut
To keep an optimistic perspective
I held them back when they would hurt you
But somehow I lost my way
I joined their side

I tried, love
To keep my heart glad to see you
To fill myself with trust of you
But I held on until I bled
And the wounds could not be healed
And sorry became a useless plea

I tried, love
But I will not live with the self-loathing
That comes from hating you

August 13th – Wanderer

Wanderer

Wanderer
Do you ever get lonely?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
When your feet ache
Can you stop?
Or do you trudge onward
Into blackness?

Have you family?
Have you friends?
Have you any shoulder to cry on?
If you get lost
Can you call someone?
Do you ever get lost at all?

I beg you
Find my doorstep
I’d sleep on the floor
If you came
For, Wanderer,
I was once you
And I cannot sleep
Until you find your peace

June 8th – Lost

Ha! The poetry today is not necessarily dark, despite what the title might make you think. This poem only halfway rhymes, but oh well. Usually I can’t rhyme at all! 😀 I’m also not feeling all that lost today, but here is this for those who are.

Lost

I feel a little lost today

Can’t find a map that’s mine

And using someone else’s

Would be an unspeakable crime

My compass just keeps spinning

The needle won’t be still

Even when I try to hold it

With my own will

My GPS has gone to static

Its screen completely dead

All remembered directions are gone

Even from my head

There’s nothing else to do now

But start walking a random way

And hold some faith in my heart

That I’ll make it somewhere someday