Make It Stop

Make It Stop

I’m so tired
Of burning eyes that hold back tears
Of shaking hands that turn to ice
Of hurting hearts that pound my chest

I’m so tired
Of hearing screaming
Of taking blows
Of holding people as they cry

I’m so tired
Of trying to keep the world together as it falls apart
Of not knowing why it is
Of holding on to something that is already gone

I’m so tired
Of hurt
Of pain
Of tears

Just
Make
It
Stop

Take Away

Take Away

Take away my things
Take away my pride
Take away my smile
Take away my laugh
Take away my self-respect
Take away my courage
Take away my love
Take away my happiness
Take away my tears
Take away my truth
Take away my friends
Take away my sanctuary
Take away my sanity
Take away my music
Take away my breath
Take away my soul
Take away my life

Take away everything I am but that only
Takes away my love for you

The Question

The Question

It tugs at your mind
Like a forlorn child
Begging for attention
Whimpering to be heard
But when you dare to listen
The sound grates your ears
Like a scream
That you can still hear
When you clap your hands over your ears
To stem the bleeding
But the life force drains
Down your cheeks like tears
And you watch the droplets
Drip onto the floor
In a rhythmic staccato
Keeping time with your heartbeat
As your frantic pulse slows
As your body empties its veins
And you sink to the ground
Wondering why

Pieces of Me

Pieces of Me

You see me as the girl
High above you in the sky
Dancing on the clouds
Laughing
With my face turned ever towards the sunlight
Well
Let me tell you a secret

That girl isn’t real
She’s a ghost
Only half of herself
But yes
She’s me
See
Let me tell you a story

I fell from the clouds
Long ago
No one reached out a hand
And its fine
I wouldn’t have taken it anyway
Here
Let me tell you what happened

I shattered on the stony ground
Losing myself in a million pieces
I laid there under the pouring rain
Until somehow I found away
To pick up what was left
Well
Let me tell you a secret

I didn’t get them all
I left bits to dull in the dirt
Now I can’t fly as high because the sun hurts my eyes
It’s a cycle now
The flying, the falling, the failing

And every time I lose a little bit more

Underwater

Underwater

Last time I saw you
You dragged me down with you
Kicking and screaming
Until I was submerged
Too far
To resurface without the help of another
I swore then
That you would never touch me again
You made me terrified to swim

Here you are again
Hand outstretched
Apologizing for nothing
And calling me the coward
Your voice hitting me again and again
Like a skipping stone
Let us sink one more time
To the sharp rocky bottom
Until I forget how to breathe
Underwater

Left Behind

Left Behind

I stare down the road
Watching the form
of your being
Getting so far away
I reach out a hand
But it doesn’t matter
You can’t see it

Once we walked down the same path
At the same pace
Side by side
When did you leave me?
Why?
Surely this is not my fault
I never wanted this

I’m still walking
Slower now
But there’s no way around it
I’ll letting go
And moving on
Sorry love but
You just fell too far behind me

Tick Tock

(No, this isn’t a Ke$ha song.)

Tick Tock

Tick tock
Tick tock

Seconds race around the clock
But minutes drag on by
Yet in an hour things change so much
In a day the world’s brand new
A week can be like
A month or
A million years

Tick tock
Tick tock

We dance to the beat of seconds
Step in time with the minutes
Spend an hour laughing
Revel in a day full of fun
Because who’s to say the week will be full of the same
Or that the month will remain unchanged
That next year we’ll all be here

Tick tock
Tick tock

Death can happen in a second
Laughing can change to tears in a minute
An hour can bring enough pain to topple you
A day can stab you more than once
Weeks can be trenches of endless despair
Months can be pits
A year can spell your end

Tick tock
Tick tock

So what will you do with your seconds?
Your minutes?
Your hours?
Your days?
Your weeks?
Your months?
Your years?

Tick tock
Tick tock

The Problem

The Problem

It’s you
Thinking there is nothing wrong
Believing you
And only you
To be in the right
Telling us we’re wrong
As we look amongst each other
Wondering where your heart has gone

It’s us
Saying nothing
Hoping this is just a phase
Praying you’ll start living again
Hiding in the corners of a room
You fill with your presence
Trying not to get burned
On the fringes or to ash

It’s you
Screaming at us for the wrongs
You refuse to pin on yourself
Hurting us because you are in pain
And thus so to must we be
You think this is the right way
The only way
Because you say so

It’s us
Not telling you anything is wrong
Smiling at you from across the room
Laughing at your jokes
Pretending we’re okay
Walking on our tiptoes
In case we awaken the sleeping fury
Of all of our problems

I Tried

I Tried

I tried, love
To stem the tides
To beat back the flames
But I lost the battle
I’m so ashamed
How did we come to this?

I tried, love
To not let it cut
To keep an optimistic perspective
I held them back when they would hurt you
But somehow I lost my way
I joined their side

I tried, love
To keep my heart glad to see you
To fill myself with trust of you
But I held on until I bled
And the wounds could not be healed
And sorry became a useless plea

I tried, love
But I will not live with the self-loathing
That comes from hating you

Time

Time

Years
Of your life can go by
As you wait for that
One special moment

Months
Can be wasted
With procrastination
And worry

Weeks
Are lost
When you sit
And ponder the ifs and buts

Days
Gone by
When you blink
And so much is missed

Hours
Given up
To tasks that
Aren’t worth your time

Minutes
Fly by
As you stare at the clock
And hope that your adventure will start

Seconds
That can be washed away
In the sands of time
Or they can change your life